Inferiority Complex

Sometimes, i feel like useless man
There's no reason for me to live
Speechless and lonely
It's like inferiority complex
Have no advantage for the people around, for the environment

And than i hate myself and i want to die, closing all my fucking life


When looking at the mirror
I don't want to look at myself
I hate the man that reflected in the mirror
I want to spit on that face

I want to hurt myself
Felt the blood drain out
And time is running slow
Feel the pain

I just useless junk
Only a coward
The loser in the competition of life
Die with my megalomaniac dreams
Just daydreaming without realization 
Living alone with no one accompanying
Go anywhere without being asked by anyone
Being asshole who lost in the river hypocrisy
Looking for a challenge in life or just a loser
Being a bastard who abandoned
And have no friends or relatives who accompany
Since the last loyal friend has been murdered

Most live in an imaginary world
Running from reality

Those moments come and go
Happiness and sadness change in cycle

When sadness come
I feel like to shouted loudly in the quiet woods
Break the glass with my hands
Fall from highness
Blow up my head
Throw out all the things on it

Then start a totally new life
Start over 

In the darkness, lonely, hungry and cold
I need a candle light that guides me to His path
I ask : "Why God created human ? What behind God's mind ?"